Solidified

So I haven't blogged in a long time...but not for lack of material.

Oh the material runneth over...

and over...

and over...

and over!!

I just haven't had enough...

time

motivation

desire

concentration

or aspiration to relive these moments in my head, for fear that I will experience the same anxiety that engulfed me in real time.

I don't know if I have told you guys this before, but I am a head job.

and not in a good way.

When things are great with me...they are wonderful...

but when things go south...they take a nose dive...and land in a big pile of shit.

That was what happened today...

It is Tuesday...freakin Tuesday...

We played Kansas yesterday (lost...boo) and Valentines was last weekend...so tonight was supposed to be slow in theory.

Well the pinche theory was wrong.

We had some decent hours.

We did the business of a Thursday night...tonight...

we were not staffed for this...

we should have had one more person at the front door...

one more person bussing...

Luckily we had Superman in the kitchen...so we were covered there.

I knew it would be an interesting night when I saw my roster.

We use sports analogies all the time...because we operate something like a team.

Well...let's just say that my roster was all rookies...with a few exceptions.

One of our more seasoned players started be unsportsman like to another person...and all hell broke loose...

you know what...back the bus up...

who am I kidding...this night went to shit waaaaaay before that...

that was just the straw that broke the camel's back...

and my back was broken

so was my spirit...

I have known for awhile now that I may not be cut out for this...

tonight just solidified it.