Just Fake It

I could take that title soooooooo many different places, but I will focus on what is pertinent to this blog.

As a server or really anyone who is employed at a restaurant, we fake it DAILY!!!

When you are at work you have to check your personal life at the door. I have to be honest...that is sometimes the hardest part of my job.

Especially when I see someone that I don't like, or would rather avoid...you don't really have that option.

Last night I was put in a position where my faking it forte paid off...I was put in one of the most awkward of awkward situations...and I nailed it...I smiled so big when I wanted to scream & all appeared to be perfect!!!

At least to the people who don't know me as well...for those who know me, for those who get me...

I am transparent.

My fakes are shown through as fraudulent...and my lies are received as bullshit.

I think this is because my personality doesn't really operate on a superficial level. Everyone that I meet and accept into my heart...is trusted with my heart. So I feel like they deserve what is real...and when my heart is pissed...or happy...or cracked out crazy...it shows...

Lately everyone has been curious what is going on with me...and I am having trouble faking it...

Everyday on the radio the Graham Man reminds us that tough times don't last...tough people do...

I am just having trouble faking it...and I don't see a light at the end of the tunnel so that makes it hard to forge a gap fake...

But I am going to do it...until I can't do it anymore...or until I don't have to do it anymore...

Which ever comes first!